"Who am i, that the bright morning star would choose to light the way for my ever-wandering heart? Who am i, that the voice that calmed the sea would call out through the rain and calm the storm in me? Not because of who i am, but because of what You've done, not because of what i've done, but because of Who You Are! I am a flower quickly fading; here today and gone tomorrow; a wave tossed in the ocean; a vapor in the wind. Still, YOU HEAR ME WHEN IM CALLING. LORD, YOU CATCH ME WHEN IM FALLING, AND YOU SHOWED ME WHO I AM. I AM YOURS!"
Im sure most of you have heard this song. Well last night, i was having a hard time. i was missing home, thinking about how hard school was gonna get, wondering how i was ever gonna learn enough Portuguese to get by, let alone grasp the whole language. Then this song came to mind and it was kind of like a spiritual bucket of cold water was dumped on me and a comforting reasurrance hit me: i am not in this position because of anything i can do, any way i have proven myself, or to prove that i can succeede. i am not here just to have a "good experience" or to be able to come out of it sayin, "i did it." Its not about anything that i have done or can do!
The truth is, this first few days that i've been here have been pretty self-focused. i was constantly worrying in the back of my mind about all kinds of me stuff. i thought, "how am i gonna do this?" And then i started singing that song and God's power and love exploded in my heart! The Holy Spirit reminded me that i am HIS! He WILL NOT leave me or let me fail because He is doing His work! it was such an awesome an comforting feeling that i couldnt help but praise Him! Gloria Deus! I love serving My Father who has so much love for me and never leaves me, even for a second!
I know this doesnt mean that everything will go perfectly. im gonna start to worry and the devil knows i miss home, so hes gonna try to pull me down with that. But GREATER is He that is in me than he that is in the world! He will lift me up and i will always praise Him! if you serve the same loving, powerful, and unchanging God, leave an "amen" down there in the comment box or write it on my wall on facebook so that everyone can see that we are His!!
Until Next Time,